What is real and what is psychosis? Did a Demon visit me in the fall of 1970, or did I imagine it?
It was a cold day in the fall of 1970 for Dallas TX. I had gotten off early, from my construction job, so I stopped by a local convenience store for cigarettes. While I was there I picked up a copy of Stephen King’s book Salem’s Lot. The weather was bad and according to the forecast would get worse. What better way to spend a wet cold night than a horror book and a cold beer.
Coming from an Assembly of God background, spirituality and the netherworld were well known to me. My father was a preacher. My mother led the singing. By sixteen I had been to more churches, listened to more preachers and seen more spiritually, than most people have seen in a lifetime. I have witnessed exorcisms, healings and life changing spiritual experiences. Heard people speak in tongues and seen the power of God completely overcome them.
Unfortunately I’ve seen as many or more frauds, there are always people who have to have what other people have even if they have to fake it.
The actions of these few destroy the credibility of the whole group. You have all had the same experience; be it church or coven these people usually destroy the group as one after another members fall away.
The good book says (along with many other writings) we all have the ability to know and commune with the spirit world, prayer being the most common today. It also tells us there are gifts, not all have a gift and of those that do they all don’t have the same one. So the next time you come across someone claiming to have all the powers, they probably don’t have any.
My parents believed every word in the Bible so the spirit world was just as real as the material world. That is how I was raised and that is what I believe, because I saw it with my own eyes and felt it to the core of my being. When the power is used by any practitioner, be it Priest or Mage for good or ill; there will be no doubt as to its validity
Now back to my story before I wander too far from the topic. Great minds tend to do that you know.
After dinner (supper for us more mature folks) I pulled a chair in front of the fireplace, hoping I had picked a good book. When I discovered it was about my favorite monster Vampires, I was very pleased with myself.
What better monster is there for a 26 year old male than a vampire? You live forever, have a castle to do it in, run through the woods in wolf form, or fly through the night as a bat. Not to mention biting pretty young maidens on the neck. Could life or death be any better?
If you have ever read a Stephen King novel you know his ability to cut through the lower and bring out the true horror of his subjects. By the time I finished the novel my romantic ideas of vampires were permanently altered. Gone was the long cape, the articulate speech and stately manor of Dracula depicted in the movies.
All replaced with what would be the reality of such a creature. The horror unleashed on that town was despicable. The systematic and total destruction of human life, turning everyone into mindless parasites was something I was totally unprepared for. No glimmer or romance just the reality of unwashed evil.
As I put down the book I wondered what manner of being was capable of unleashing such misery and destruction. Were even the Demons spoken of in ancient manuscripts capable of this? What sort of hatred could drive anything to do such things?
As I pondered these thoughts I realized I had seen this before, on a far less dramatic scale but with the same results. People with addictions, alone and feeding off other people including their love ones. Sinking lower and lower until the only trace of humanity they have is walking on two legs and yes there are many beings in the netherworld that would do it.
While I was in this state of total outrage I made probably the biggest mistake in my life. I would like to plead youthful ignorance at this point, but ignorance of the law is no excuse under any law, and my next statement broke a bunch. I said in a clear voice and with all the conviction in my body “If there is a creature in this world or the next that would do such a thing I want to see it”. Then all the emotion left me, I turned out the light and went to bed.
My wife and children were already in bed, as any mother with small children knows to go to bed when they do. So I undressed in the dark and went to bed.
The next five minutes were the longest and the most frightening I have ever spent. Because I got what I asked for, what materialized in my bedroom took everything but breath from me. It emanated cold, dark despair, despair so deep I didn’t want to live. I have never felt so helpless in my life. I believe to this day if I had not made it to my wife I would me dead or worse. She was all I had to hold on to, a speck of reality where none seemed to exist. Love where love didn’t exist.
It stood at the end of the bed for what seemed like five minutes, but I know it was only seconds. Then it walked to my side of the bed and sat down on the bed. It was heavy, very heavy. The bed sunk down causing my body to roll in that direction. My mind was screaming “don’t look at it.”
I was facing the other direction; the doorway leading to the hall was at my head. Not knowing what to do and sanity slipping away, I called on the religion I was raised in and began to rebuke the Demon, in the name of Jesus. It took several times but it worked.
My mind cleared and I was no longer afraid. The best word to describe what I felt is detached. I was no longer a participant only an observer.
The Demon got up and walked around the bed to the hallway door. As it entered my field of view, for I was still unable to move, I could make out its form against the dark of the night. It was darker than night. It was darkness that had never known light, it was despair.
When it reached the door it illuminated itself, with a pail yellow glow, its body was physically perfect. The head was that of a long horned cow with an extended mouth and nose.
Its hands were large for its body with what you might call Bear claws for nails. It was medium to light rusty red in color.
As it left, it turned to face me. The eyes were black and cold. It grinned showing a mouth full of glimmering white pointed teeth, then ducked its head to get through the door and left. When it left darkness once more fell over the room.
I don’t know what happened next, I think I passed out. The next day I told my wife what happened, she listened, accepted what I said as fact and told me to be careful. If I had as much confidence in myself as she does I would be a millionaire. She thought I had everything under control, but I knew who saved who. I never told her, it’s a man thing.
Was it real or imagined. You be the judge, all I can do is relate as accurately as I can what happened. I can tell you what I believe. I believe I inadvertently invoked a Demon to physical form, a very risky business even with proper preparation.
One more thing before I go. As you seek your religious path, never abandon your childhood belief. It is always there, like your mother’s arms. A place to run when there’s no place else to go.
Thomas
Alex,
about the Demon… I would like to add these few lines along with the Demon experience, to help clarify the story.
What you see here are a few of the symbolic weapons used for protection. Some I bought but the sword and digger I had made from an original Bronze Age Celtic sword. The entwined snakes wand I carved from the secret oak. The other wand called me into the woods and bid me take it. I have not had it long.
One thing I should have made clear in the article, I had none of these then. I knew I was different, because strange things happened to me from about my tenth year. But I had no protection or real knowledge of what had come to me. Yes I knew what it was but that was all I knew. So I fell back on my childhood beliefs to save me. I knew nothing of the power of the Word. Or the implications of emptying your emotions into that word or thought. The magic had found me but I had not found it. If I knew then what I know now I would have been prepared.
Coming in April's EZine Thomas talks about the Ouija Board and his experience with it. Many of you ask me about these and the energies attached. Read what Thomas' experience was with the Ouija Board.
NOTE from Alex: Should you encounter a spirit of darkness that attempts to come against you in your life on any level, disagreements caused by others at home or at work, liars, manipulators that would steal your credit at work and betray you or simply steal your reputation or destroy it at work or in your circle of friends, I, like Thomas, encourage you to immediately plead the "Blood of Jesus Christ" over your body, your soul, your spirit, and your mind. Say it 3 times for the 3 fold blessing of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. If you are Chinese this would be for (1) Heaven, (2) Earth, and (3) Mankind. If you know Creator God by another name use that Holy Name that your spiritual culture defines as the most powerful Name of God to call upon for you. Repeat it 3 times for the blessing of protection. Continue to repeat whatever Holy Name you know until the spirit of darkness leaves and it WILL leave.
You do not want to receive any of their negative energy influences on any level, or be susceptible to it in any way whatsoever. Certainly you do not want to be sympathetic to it and literally transfer it into your life. That is called "sympathetic magic" when you actually are open to it and it takes a hold on your life.
As Thomas says "Be very careful" with these things. You will experience more harm than good if you are out of your element and "playing" with the darkness. You will not be glad. Please be aware of these presences that exist around us and protect yourself with your own Holy Names of Protection always.
There are some Prayers for Exorcisms at my www.AngelAccess.com site under the Inspirations link. If you need them go to www.angelaccess.com/frm/prayers/Exorcisms1.html and also another one at www.angelaccess.com/frm/prayers/Holy_Water1.html
Prayers like these do not have to be used only for possession of an evil spirit or demon. Anything that comes against you can be dealt with by using these prayers. Always be sure you send the evil BACK to its source. You don't need to name the source. God knows where it comes from. You are not sending it to a person, that way avoiding judgment of the individual, you are sending it back to where it came from. Be sure to plead the Blood of Christ over yourself several times when you use these prayers of protection.
I have had dozens of people, primarily women, over the last ten years that describe a feeling of someone holding them down or choking them and there is no visible person present, yet there is a force of evil that seems to be terrorizing them, not so much in their dreams, but before they sleep or it will wake them up.
Each of these people think they are the only person this has ever happened to because they know absolutely nothing about this sort of thing. They are ashamed or embarrassed and don't know what to do, feeling that somehow they have brought this into their lives. They do not open up and discuss it with anyone for fear of being thought to be "possessed by satan or demons." That is NOT true. These things attack for no particular reason and pick random people to torment. You do not have to be a bad person for this to happen to you. In fact, usually the "pure spirit", the innocent are the ones attacked. Those that have no knowledge of these events.
Lately I have had several people describe this same type of event to me, much more frequently. For that reason, I feel it is necessary to make people completely aware of the forces that exist in our world that are not good and seek to harm us.
I cannot stress to you enough the "Power of God that exists in spoken prayers." Even if you only have time to say the Lord's Prayer or cry out "My God, My God, My God," that will be enough to stop these assaults upon your mind, body, and spirit. Keep repeating it until it ends. Sing, clap to break up the evil spirits that may be present, recite Psalms or prayers of any kind and the "Prayer Power" will be lifted up to God for your instant deliverance from these forces.
Just because this has never happened to you does not mean it cannot. Thomas was shocked his defiant invitation was immediately answered, and horrified of the feelings it brought with it. Forces of good and evil battle against each other since the beginning of time. This is not new.
Ephesians 6:12: For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against the powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against the spiritual wickedness in the high places.
The Bible suggests that we live our lives in a state of constant prayer or a prayerful attitude and that alone is the most powerful protection against the dark side. Call on the Power of God when you need it and find instant help and deliverance from all and any darkness or oppression that befalls you. You will, by joining with the Power of God, be victorious.